-A year in Review-

So, here it is. 31st december 2008. In about 14 hours' time, the world is going to welcome a new year. 2009. And i wish to close this insginificant 08 with a review of things that happened. Here goes everything and nothing!





JANUARY

January was considered one of my last month in NS. More specifically, Bedok camp. Home of the Elites. 3rd Batallion singapore guards 13th mono. Time was spent with my men and also with fellow commanders. Preparing them for Stand By and welcoming the 2nd year commander. In particular 3rd sgt cray heng soon. I couldn't ask for a better replacement than him, A silver bayonet recepient.





FEBUARY

The month where i turn 21. And got my pink ic on CNY. Plus one last company cohesion at lta oliver's condo. Oc once again cried. A man who commands alot of respect from the commanders and also the men. *salutes*





MARCH

The month that was long awaited for. Chalet with all the closest primary school friends. With turn out great. Plus we welcome more ex school mates into the family. =)





April/May

Seriously, i cant remember anything about april and may.





JUNE

I got the green light to go and study in Australia. A month which i really think hard about leaving everything behind. =)

JULY

This was when i got my offer from university of newcastle(australia) for a degree in business. And a toast to the best yet again. 3rd batallion singapore guards 13th mono for attaining the best infantry unit for wy 0708. A feat rarely achieved by a first yr unit. =)

AUGUST

0908. thats national day. A day spent at the beach with pri sch friends. had fun. yeah! My most significant would be nike+ 10k. it was a nice experience. A nice long run in a long time. =)

September

I get to see the newest addition to the family. Hazira. A cute little thing a.k.a MY BABY! she so the adorable la can?! And for the first time i got a super high fever. Ouh.. it was the FASTING MONTH!

October

A month filled with emotions. I was Emo during this month. nothing much i can remember. hahha! Except that i had a wonderful raya with 22 peeps! haha..

November

A month of stay at home. and still am. hahha.. getting fat fat fat!

December

The most significant month of 2008. Things start to happen. I got my future in motion i think. And i finally get to meet my couz who i have not seen for over a yr.

There you go. My insignificant 2008. I am really looking forward to 2009. a new chapter. Where i hope things will start to happen. next post.. NEW YEAR RESOLUTION!

ENJOY!

Wan-oh-Wan

YEOW! waddup? it's my 101 post. Well basically afterr 100 its 101. even my primary 6 cousin would know that. heh!


Last sunday i didn't go play for genesis due to my cousin's engagement. But thankfully they drew 4-4. while i missed my liverpool demolish newcastle 5-1. plus missing vietnam being crown the new ASEAN champion for the first time. i guess it was all worth it.

Took photos and joke around with the family i have not seen for like ages. Deep down i miss those times. Hopefully our bowling plans for the 1st of jan will work out. *prays*

It is 2 more days to the new year. And what a way to end off my 2008. Nothing significant happened this year until almost the last week of DEC. Now.. just gotta wait for when is the right time to say it out loud.

I am really looking forward to 2009. Especially jan 30th til 1st feb. and Turning 22. With no gf still... Oh THE TRAGEDY!!... (or not!)

One Hundred!

hello everyone. Its my 100th post! I will try to make it special by posting pictures!! For those who can't bear to see any more red, please do not look at the next few pictures.

This post is dedicated to my current beau!
LIVERPOOL FC!

i like this one. it's my wallpaper on my hp.

Welcome to my room!(that''s the door btw)

Behind the scenes


This, i love!

"The wall"
(the bottom banner was signed by Xabi Alonso. A personal gift from my favourite BITCH in Liverpool; Ko zaw)

The Flag and The fantastic 7 Poster

(the flag is huge i tell you. Had a hard time trying to make it work)

The Fantastic 7

Kuyt, Alonso, Babel, TORRES, GERRARD, Keane, Carragher

(I do not understand why babel is in and mascherano is out. Same with keane)

The Apparels

(The personal jersey was from anfield itself. Much thanks to my bitch again!)

Nice? HAPPY 100th POST TO ME! =)

janji dipateri

Slam

Janji Dipateri

Sepi yang mencengkam

Perasaan... memilukan

Sukar ku terima

Hilangnya... dari mata

Tanpa pesanan

Aku ditinggalkan

Kini kau ingin kembali

Pinta bermesra bermanja

Kini telah terlalu lama

Ku harungi sendiri

Tak mungkin ku terima kembali

Ku telah dimiliki

Hati suci

Yang memahami

Kesetiaan cinta

Tanpa berdusta

Ku sematkan

Cinta di hati

Takkan ku mungkiri

Janji dipateri

Terlalu sukar untuk kuterima

Cintamu kali kedua

Setelah musnah hati kau lukai

Untuk apa kembali

this song is currently on repeat mode. i know its a very old song.. somehow i fell in love with it again. anyway, i do love slam for all their jiwangness. But some of their lyrics is to die for. i like kurnia too.. nice...

I realised that my red adizero mania is collecting dust. its been too long since i use it. Next week. i make sure i wear it once. And i only wear my adizero for one thing. Hope i will do it..

*still got 2 weeks for something meaningful to happen to my 08*

shut up and get out..

if i dun interfere in your life.. dun interfere with mine..

nuff said

-utterly and disgustingly disappointed-

EEEwwwwwwww and OUch!

you know what is utterly disgusting? Seeing and hearing your mum acting like a teenager in love.. Try to imagine that.. gross i tell ya.. and let me say u wont be able to stomach it if it really does happen... *pukes*

-Someone save me!-

You know how it feels when you get to know that some one u have been there for actually dont give you that amount of trust you deserved? Its bitter pill to swallow.. but.. others above self.. as long as your intentions are pure.. you have nothing to worry about.

-kindness comes at a price-

anyway.. i am not too sure what i have been up to lately. seem like i am practically not doing anything. Cant wait for the new year.. maybe 2009 will be a better year. 2008 gonna end pretty soon. ouh.. and i juz realised that i have not dated this whole year.. WOW!

Life - or the lack there of

WOOT!
Singapore beat Indonesai 2-0.
Liverpool won without captain fantastic, alonso, reina,kuyt and torres.
i still have no idea what robbie keane is trying to do.. but okie la.. at least he set up ngog goal with a great vision.. but stillllllll....

yes.. thats my life.. soccer and face book.. aku ni macam tak de life.. so i got to self entertain.. sometimes i feel like disturbing peeps.. but den i decide against it.. heh.. malas siul..

and hopefully i get my reply in 2 weeks.. i hope i get it.. PLZ!!!

nothing interesting happened.. or so i choose to think that way..
juz looking forward to wad ever come my way.. =)

Stone

I am a stone

I know no emotions

I know no pain

I know no love, only hate

Try to break me

I will stand firm

For i am a stone

with no heart

Without a name

Superhuman

Chris:
Weak, I have been crying and crying for weeks.
How'd I survive when I can barely speak,barely eat on my knees

Keri:
But that's the moment you came to me, I don't know what your love has done to me.
Think im invincible I see through the me I used to be.

You've changed my whole life, don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
feeling all superhuman you did that to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.Superhuman..
feel so superhuman x2

Chris:
Strong, since i've been flying and righting the wrongs.
Feels almost like i've had it all along, I can see tomorrow.

Keri:
Where every problem is gone because I flew everywhere with love inside of me.
It's unbeliveble to see how love can set me free.

You've changed my whole life, don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.Superhuman..
I feel so superhuman x2

It's not a bird, not a plane, it's my heart and it's going gone away.
My only weekness is you, only reason is you, every minute with you I feel like I can do, anything..
Going,going i'm gone away, in love.

You've changed my whole life, don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.
Superhuman..


the part in red...-dats how u made me feel-


"i gotta realised that i am here not cuz i have to.. its cuz i wan to.. no matter how painful it is"

YAY!

The men from 3 guards are back from wallaby.. and thanks to sgt bag.. we had a ball of a time literally at ecp juz now.. damn.. i miss those buggers.. too bad i didnt bring my cam.. if not sure camwhore.. haha.. gerek pe!


- i wonder.. did i fall in love with ur eyes or ur smile?.... it doesnt matter when u leave me mesmerised-

Best and the worst...

i think today i put my worst performance even for gens in the first 15 mins.. i was at fault for the opponents first goal..

najib got injured.. so as the 2nd choice keeper.. i had to stand in goal.. after years.. i should say i was pretty plz with myself.. except for conceding the freak own goal from a freekick...

i miss playing keeper actually... and i love dat feeling of being in the air... esp when u make a wonder save out of no where.. =)

love love love

TORRES!
how can i forget i was called torres... damn.. on the day that everything i touched turn to goals.
even against one of the most respected centre back and my favourite centre back partner.. koy le san.. ddamn...

juz got back from a run.. leave me breathless sei.. but its okie... gotta keep running..

speaking of torres.. i am damn happy to know dat my personal LIVERPOOL jersey direct from anfield itself is arriving next week.. all thanks to my bitch.. maung ko zaw.. love him to the bits of the bits... haha.. sounds gay...

currently i am addicted to facebook.. playing all sorts of games.. esp mobwars.. now playing hitman.. and everyone should try word challenge.. look simple.. but.. mak kau.. pe susah gileeeeeeeee.... heh...

=)

friends

i love all my friends..
and i am glad almost all my friends found love
=)

finally played soccer at the usual place with the usual peeps..
it was nice outing after like months and months of not playing..
hahha. got dubbed as lionel messi.. weeeeeeeeeeeeee!
now i got.. reina.. carragher... gerrard.. luis garcia... cannavaro.. shaun wright phillips.. john anne riise.. ashley cole... who else will i be called?

ahhaha...

Here i am

i got a few songs stuck in my head..

Jason mraz & calbie caillat - lucky
shontelle - T-shirt
T.I - Whatever you like
Leona lewis - here i am

If you need a place where you can run,
If you need a shoulder to cry on,
I'll always be your friend,
When you need some shelter fom the rain,
When you need a healer for your pain,

I will be there time and time again;
When you need someone to love you,
Here I am....


*dat song reminds me of u*

Sanity check!

This is to those who are concern for me..
i am absolutely fine.. =)
dun worry okie?


but i was juz wondering..
how much longer before i break...
hmm.. i dun think so..
something killing me softly inside..
i know wad it is i think..
damn...

*solace.. where are u now?*

*da jatuh ditimpa escalator*

random

to sheik.. congrats on passing ur 2b.. harap ni kau tak tipu aku eh!


Da vinci can paint a thousand pictures but none will be as beautiful as your smile.
Shakespear can fabricate a million poems but not a single word can describe u.
God may have all the angels in heaven but all of em combine can never compare to u.

This verse is a random verse. Its not directed to anyone(maybe).
i tot of it and so i wrote it down... =)

walk away

walk away.. not from ur troubles.. cuz that wont solve your problem.
walk away when u are angry.. at least u wont create anymore trouble.
walking away cost me 27 buckx.. but its a price i am willing to pay.. dats it!

anyway.. gd luck to sheik for his 3rd tp today.. hopefully he pass den can fetch me.. =)

hmmmm... i got too much on my mind.. thinking of so many things..


i need solace. i still remember the line i told u...

*if at the end of a tiring day u have a place or someone u can seek solace, u know dat ur life is worth it*

Always

First and foremost i would like to thank peeps who are concern for me. be it made known or not to me. i really appreciate the thought. i am fine peeps.. thanks..

I know i have mentioned this before... and i am going to mention this again.
to all my friends.. i am always here for all of u.. anytime of the day.. i will do wad ever i can for u aite? be it listening to u cry.. or u sharing things dat onli u me and god knows.. i am always here.. till God decide to take me away from all of u..

i hope my 2 lovely girls do take gd care of 2 of my closest guy friends.. i am praying for their happiness.. especially dat 2.. hur hur hur.. as for myself.. u peeps dun need to worry.. when the time come.. it will... i hope...


*check-mate.. u got me there.. and i cant make my next move... =(*

the sum of it all

AWFUL!

yes.. one word to sum everything. Especially today. From morning till now even. its been awful. and i am trying to keep myself sane.

speaking of which, lately i wondered how i manage to keep myself sane with so much things happening. i still have alot of things to consider but yet i am trying my best to keep my feet on the ground. And i am thankful that there's one more person in this world who knows how i really feels. yes.. i do need an outlet too.. who ever the person is shall remain a mystery cause the person holds the answer to everything. Macam superhero gitu eh.

if i van have any power in the world, i would like to be invisible. not or perverted reasons. its just so i can sit at one corner and oserve how this world works. and if i choose. i can help peeps who need it. but being a superhero is not easy. to quote a fren, "u are like a superhero. everyone needs u but u are are always lonely." thanks M.. thats ur quote.

btw, i wrote something meant for your eyes onli. but since i cant show u for alot of reasons. i showed it to someone else instead.

i miss writing.

i miss... ouh nvm...

ouh... i am really praying that 2 of my closest friends find bliss in each other. AMIN!

"if anyone can read wad's on my mind.. tell her aite?"

In a world of my own

crap.. last update 14th sept.. dats like almost a month already. but i did blog. but not here. blog for genesis. but nvm.. moving on and moving along.

in a space of a month, so many things happen that i am unsure of where to start. but events dat happen in 1 day can cause u to stop and ponder. 15 years. thats how long 1 day can take u back. i will try not to be emo here. but.. all i can say is dat i have all the reasons in the world not to migrate. and most of em were there on 111008.

kk.. let me get my mind straight. cuz something been bothering me. so much so dat i finally ran to get it out of my system.

i dunno wad it is for now. i gotta make a hell lot of decisions. i have alot of things to consider. more importantly.. i wanna stop putting my life on hold. but tho i dun show it.. something dear to me is holding me back.

I dun ask for an angel to watch over me. in fact, i am not asking for anything at all.

the cost of risk

onli time will tell the cost of the risk i took today. especially after being really sick for the past 4 days and to add to that.. its the fasting month. i think i may aggrevate something near my right hip. and i hope i dun lose too much brain cells due to the prolong fever.

but.. back to winnings. for a match dat we never took the lead until the last goal and also due to the high influx of unfamiliar faces, i think gens did well and showed alot of mental strength. despite a few players fasting we got the job done. kudos to zul for scoring a wonder goal. khai for his strong running which leads to his goal. hong peng for not giving up and score. khayrul for running his heart out and a wonder free kick. jason for holding his nerve scoring the penalty. and special mention for najeeb our keeper. despite blundering a few time.. he keep his head high and made a hell lot of wonder saves that ensurethe win for gens.


5-4 final score.

the price of succes-- yet to be known.

The wall finally crashed

Final score Liverpool 2 manchester united 1.
finally.. 7 years of not beating manchester united at home. finally for rafa to slay the devil which have bothered him since he took over as manager. BUT all i wanna say is as fanatic as i am a liverpool fan, this is just a one off thing. nothing to be excited about. the league is not a sprint. for liverpool to achieve this feat without gerrard and torres is pretty impressive. especially after going a goal down, they showed more hunger. and they got what they deserve at the end of it. Kudos to the reds this once. and many thanks to edwin van der sar and wes brown. not forgetting giggs. =)

on a lighter note, thanks weit for being my mum for the past few days. i am feeling much much better today. now i am contemplating playing for genesis this evening... hahha.. take care. go get ur mp3 soon okie?

this is a side note. The walls have finally crashed. The pillar gave way. and one by one they start to crumble. onli that which strenghten the pillar were left standing. plus a few others which the pillar is still holding on.
time to rebuild? --- time to consider.

brain freeze - the opposite

every one knows what a brain freeze is. but have anyone thought of the opposite?
i think i will coin the term - brain fried. thats wad i experienced yesterday night. i slept way way early like 730pm. but i woke up countless times due to the sheer pain. and every single time i wake up i will take my temperature. and all the readings never fail to reach the 39.0 mark. seriuosly, i thought my brain was goin to get fried in no time. 4 days of 38.1-39.0 degree celcius of fever and counting still. so much so that i contemplated on going to the hospital at 3am in the morning. and i was prepared to stay in hospital for observation too. all i need is my psp and hp(both charger included) and a book. heh.. turns out i just tell myself to endure the pain. right now, i am a prisoner in my own room. sis dun let me go out. means i gotta paitao my pri sch peeps for buke puasa today. even tho i got a few calls asking me to go. sadly.. i cant.. haiz...

against my better jugdement

thye doc advised me not to fast today. but i decided that i can get through it. well.. i guess the doc was right. my temp went up to 38.4. and the pain was becoming unbearable. so i did wad i had to to take my medicine.
hopefully toyda is the onli day i dun fast. InsyaAllah.

down with the sickness

38.1 degree celcius.
thats my official temperature at the doc at 730pm today. that was after enduring 24hours of sheer pain. seriously, i thought my brain was goin to fry due to the heat. even my bro asked me to break my fast. but i didnt. i wan to complete the 30 days. for the past 2 years i was unable to fast the full 30 days due to ns commitment. 11 days gone and 19 more to go. yeah...

sis asked if its okie we get orange baju this year. i didnt tell her this. but thats wad i had in mind. why orange? well.. those who know will know. those who dont know.. too bad.

k k... goin to slack for the next 2 days.. the doc offered me 3 days tho.. but i didnt wan.. pluz i got a scolding.. maybe i should start taking care of myself.. heh... :(

Always be my baby...

To weit and farhana.. this entry is for u to oogle at the baby.. uber duper cute.. too bad she gonna leave in about an hours time.. back to jalan patah..

sleeping peacefully in my room

isnt she cute???

need i say more? - thats mum in the background btw

the night i put her to sleep.

all cuddle up.. u should see her when she sleep.. so the cute la can.. but keeping me up most of the time was worth it..

pics from nike+

as promised.. the pics from nike+ 10k.

the logo for the race

yesh.. thats my inmate's no.

anyone wanna guess wad's inside??

the concert after the race

the peeps i was there with. the new platoon 5 commanders

thats wad we got after the race.. but wad's inside?

cray.. the guy that took over my section..

11k at nike+ 10k

i was almost dateless for nike+ 1ok today cause my original date(ahmadkame) have some commitment to attend to. i end up with cray and the new platoon 5 commanders. i swear esplanade was a sea of red today. and city hall was like packed due to comex and nike+. I just realised while talking to cray that this is my first ever so called competitive running. not including running cross country for my house in sec sch. and this is only the 3rd time i am running 10km. the first being in sispec and second being army half marathon 2 years ago. According to my watch, i ran 10k at 63.45mins. i must say that considering i never really train for this and the fact that there were alot of stoppages due to human jams. generally, its a super tiring run. but the view was nice. especially the second leg where we ran from esplanade to boat quay and beyond clark quay and back. it was nice really. and the souveneirs they give was cool. its like a wrist band kinda thing. NICE....

pics will be up once i get it from one of the commanders.

my another nice suprise is when my aunt from langkawi came over. and along with her was the newly baby gerl. goodness. she's uber cute. she's super fair. the amazing thing was when her mum tried to put her to sleep at 12am this morning.. she refuse to sleep and roll around playfully. damn cute i tell u. she's super active. my aunt being tired asked me to put her to sleep which i did. i brought her to my room when i was watcihng arsenal's game. she lay there all quiet and watch the game. super cute. den she twist and turn for a bit before goin to sleep not so peacefully. cuz her pacifier keep on dropping and i had to put her back to sleep.. she kep me up till 3. but it was worth it. i will put her pic once i am not lazy. i am still tired from 10k. hahha..

liverpool game now... :)

almost

juz got back not so long ago.. had a pretty long day. i do feel lethargic. but suprisingly i dont think running yesterday made me this tired. it was more of the fact that i didnt get enough sleep. this is due to my fanatical addiction to one thing dear to me.. Soccer!

yeap... i wasnt lazy to wake up and watch liverpool play against liege in their champ league match at 3am. in fact, i think i was lucky that i watched that match. it was super exciting and tense. and so far this season, i believe liverpool have been underperforming including in yesterday's game. it was a day of almost. Liverpool ALMOST didnt make it to the champ league. thankfully reina saved a penalty and liege were denied a legitimate goal in the first leg. in the season leg, liverpool were outplayed and they their performance was disappointing. keane ALMOST scored his first goal but didnt. torres to me was the biggest disappointment. he keep losing the ball and i find him to be a little selfsih at times. liverpool should play simple and pass the ball and not try to dribble den crash into a wall. as for their epl games.. they ALMOST lost their first game. They SHOULD HAVE lost their second game. BUTTTTTTT... kudos to them for their fighting spirit esp kuyt for his non stop running.. hehe...

macam soccer pundit... baik ah!

breaking the duck.

finally after much procastination, i ran. And breaking the duck of going 3 rounds around the neighbourhood instead of 2. plus going up the stairs to 14th storey twice. i think i should really instill discipline in myself. Not for the sake of others. but.. wad the heck.. haha..

fasting month starting this monday seh. i wonder how i gonna cope after fasting for the past 2 years in ns. wonder if i can get through though. haha. like they say.. niat mesti ade(the will gotta be there).

to genesis- i will still commit to sunday soccer. but preferably try to make it a 5 pm game. thanks. but come to think of it. i played soccer in the morning to for the past years. heck...

liverpool's champ league game tonight. hope i am not too lazy and tired to wake up and watch. better hit the sack early man. :)

At long last

head down to city hall at about 9am in the morning and had an impromtu breakfast at tong seng with shafiq and zhan who just finish running the AHM. it was nice to meet them after some time. then i head down to clark quay to collect my nike race pack. When i reach clark quay, it was littered with humans. and the line for the collection was uber long that i decide to go to orchard hotel to apply for sch instead. so i rushed there as i got a match at 3.

i applied for macquarie.. here comes the most important part...
i am more likely goin for the october 09 intake. that will allow me to spend more time in sg. but i might be applying for more sch as idp goin to hold another open day on 18 and 19 october.

the rain seem to be the main focal point for today cause genesis was afraid that our first match for 2 months would be cancelled. thank god it was not. i played despite not feeling well. one for the team. we drew. after the match kosaw was sweet enough drive and accompany me to clark quay to collect my race pack. had a few issues with the management but we got thru thanks to amir and nana who was also there.

so dull seh. next mon is the start of fasting month alreadyyyyyyyy... haiz....

and i would like to thank GOD for giving me loads of wonderful frenz.

Have u ever seen the rain?

Have u ever seen the rain is actually a title of a song by ccr, the ramones and a few others.

it is raining cats, dogs, mice, elephant, fish,sharks, monkeys and dinosaurs. man. It started raining like in the morning and have been pouring ever since. i think this is like the longest rain i ever seen. And it made me a prisoner in my own house. I got syida kenduri to go to. and wei ling's bday bbq to go to.

Syida.. sorry k.. i know u gonna read this and may feel disappointed that i did a no show at your kenduri. maybe yesterday's dinner was meant to happen cuz i never got home early and my hand decide to key ur no to sms. sorry okie?? i try to make up for it.. tak tau bile ah.. TRY OKIE???

i dont think i got the mood to go out. thanks to the rain i am having a slight flu. but in actual fact i have been coughing since 2 days ago. so thanks rain! hope tomolo'w weather will be better. i gotta go and collect my nike race pack at clark quay den head off to orchard hotel to apply for school den head off for soccer match at 3. PLZ DUN RAIN! its goin to be our first match in 2 months. i hope i dun pancit.

-in my moment of weakness i click on your name juz to see ur smile-

BABIES!

The government is trying to get singaporeans to have more babies. Giving incentives and all. but like all problems. its the mindset of the people dat might change. in fact i think the most important factor for having a child is the commitment that the parents is willing to undertake. raising a child is damn expensive esp in these days and age. For all u know the baby's first word might be psp or ipod. hahha... all along i been wanting to have 4 kids. 2 devils and 2 sweetie pies. But that is not my choice entirely. gotta do family planning ma. and also see if God would bless me with many children. hahah...

have u ever tot that ever thing in life have a direction? that things happen cuz something else was suppose to happen? like today, i bumped into my uncle in the lift at jurong all because the customer was an hour late. heh...

*Life is not about comparing to see who is better. It is about u being much more than what u think u can become.*

:(

Liverpool won their first match of the season unconvincingly. well, at least epl is back. so there are something to look forward to now.

however, that seem to be the onli thing left now.
currently i am not in the correct state on mind. heard too many stuff. seen too many situations.

i wish i can be somewhere else. i wish i can be someone else. or at least have someone.
right now, i am no one. not even me.

fri night blast

Yesterday night i onli had 2 hours of sleep which make me kinda stoned right now.

Currently waiting for nas to pick me up later to go to Sgt bag's wedding at tamp. I am hoping to see most of the fellow bravo commanders there. To sgt bag.. May u have a blissful marriage yeah.. now dat u are married.. i shall settle to being ur second best liao.. haha..

To my favourite india, Shafiq ali, HAPPY 21st yo..
More parties yeah? and yeah.. i will see u all before i go okie?

To matt, Have fun training in canada. Thanks for spraining my wrist. a reminder for me before u leave eh?

Anyways.. head off to matt's place after work yesterday. Not before picking up my burmese monk from tampines. Had a diff time trying to get to matt's place. MERAGI ROAD. when i first hear it i tot miagi rd siul. Tu mana? JEPUN KE? but finally reach matt's place thanks to the misdirection from aloy. So the normal bunch was there. Ian. Alex. Aloy. Daniel. Kocok. smx. hong peng and myself. Alex had a tiff with the stupid nike cage people cuz they expect us to play when we didnt play.. a bit the dumb ah. End up playing at ecp cage at 1am-3am. that explains my stoning condition right now.

on the bright side of things, EPL IS STARTING TONIGHT~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yesh ah... liverpool playing at 1230. i have no idea if i will be home to watch that match. i hope i do make it in time. first match. Its like losing your virginity for the first time u know. The anticipation and the pressure. Wait.. i wouldnt noe.. oh NVM...

Congrats to the national table tennis team for achieving wad have been eluding us so far.
An olympic medal. kudos..
next agenda.. getting singapore into world cup.. *grins*


*the search for the ans is long when u dunnoe wad u are searching for*

Cracks

Imagine this...
Trying to balance the weight of a building with one single pillar. The pillar being the smallest that u can find. How much can the pillar take before cracks start to show? How big muz the crack be before everyone realised that the pillar is goin to crumble? Is it the illusion or the believe that this small pillar is capable of handling all that weight that they juz keep piling on it?

A penny for your thought yeah?

WEIT: Gd luck for ur exam okie... hang in there.. one more week and its over.. den can PARTAY.. trust me.. its gonna be LEGEN.... wait for it.. wait for it... DARY!

FARHANA : oi.. u dating me this sun kan? where u missing ni? tak sms tak apa... grrr..

Syida : take care of yourself plz. :)

*if there's a million you... they are still nothing compared to your 1 of your smiles*

pics galore of ndp

best pic of the day titled CURANG
didnt realised he is dat tall
may this couple stay happy always Miryana
CAMWHORE!
feeling mat
sheik and d
wonderwoman's sister
MAKAN FREE!
My fav giant
Nostalgic gitu kan

The original back-seat boys
gambar album pertama
anak dara
rumah setinggan
ade2 je farna ni

Ndp with TNPs

Heh... yest was spore's 43rd bday.. da besar anak mak.. bile nak kahwin? anak da banyak.. nikah belum.. macam mana ni??

okie.. that was so random. Anyway slept late on friday night or should i say sat morning at 430am. Got a morning call to play soccer which i duly did. The funny thing was that we all were too friendly with each other. And every single one of us blamed it on national day. NATIONAL DAY MAH SO MUZ FRIENDLY ABIT! wad the hell..

went home and KO'd till like 430pm when i was suppose to meet pri sch peeps at changi at 4PM!
kate janji melayu. furthermore, the rain didnt help. so i cabbed from bedok to pasir ris to fetch d. head to changi village to fetch sheik and farna. walked a bit and found the perfect spot. took like a zillion pics( okie more like farna cam whoring.. macam tak paham gitu), ate pizzas, play stupid games, help the guys complete one of their song and wrote my 2nd malay song which is not complete yet.. haha... reach home at like 530am.. and VOILA.. here i am..

Lately, i have getting the 2 same comment over and over again. one being "u sure u over her yet?"and "GI GUNTING RAMBUT LA!" heh.. boring dok...

Relaku hidup dengan mu

Senyumanmu sinar hidup

Keayuanmu tiada dua

Dalam hatiku hanya kau satu

Sayangku dengarkan la

Laguku hanya untuk mu

Keikhlasan jangan diduga

Apa yang ku beri ertinya cinta

JABBAWOCKEEZ

JABBAWOCKEEZ's DOPE!

To those who don't know or unsure of what i am talking about, Firstly jabbawockeez is not a drug. They are a dance group. America's best dance group. they are simply DOPE! If onli i can dance half as good as them. Check them out on youtbe man... JABBAWOCKEEZ!

Today's date is 080808. The start of olympics. Means EPL starting like NEXT WEEK!!! woooooooooooooooo!! 8 is suppose to be a lucky no as according to our chinese counterpart. But today seem rather blah. ouh.. since like last week, every single day i seem to witness at least 1 accident per day. One even occur right in front of my eyes. Scary eh the thought of it.

anyways.. i seem to be thinking of my last of everything.. here's wad i can think of.
Last genesis match - june 22..
Last real date with a gerl - 050707
Last tears - dec 06
last thing i bought for myself - my hp
last present i bought - nana's gift voucher
last time i went shopping - april 08
last night - yest nite!

maybe i will come up wif a list when i am bored. maybe my first eh.. hahha...

*the answer to everything is...(there is no answer) things just happen.*

nice

if conversation was the lyrics, laughter was the music, making time spent together a melody that could be played over and over without getting stale.

was reading and came across this quote. nice...

heh

i forgot bout syida's kenduri on 23rd seh... sorry yang.. ala dayang dayang.. hehe..

wanted to run today but decided against it due to the recurring pain in my right knee. haiz.. always sia.. got an offer from boss. a offer for me to consider. see how lo...

ouh.. i realised that i have only jogged wif a girl once. and i kinda miss her. yeah...

A run in the long run

Finally, armed with 100 plus lemon lime and my fav choc(cadbury twirl), i head home and not think twice. Grabbed my red adizero which have been collecting dust and my fave red mizuno singlet, and head out to run. Did longer than i wanted to. If i recall correctly, the last time i ran was like ages ago. Plus the hiatus from team genesis which is coming to about 2 months now. I am declaring myself unfit and fat. gotta start runing regularly man. damn..

Anyways.. nothing much happening. Just that i realised my Sats this month seem to have something. 2nd aug is nana's bday. 9th aug is... NDP! 16 is sgt bag's wedding. 23rd is idp open day. gdness gracious me.....

Still waiting for idafi's photo.. gotta plan an outing... grrrrrr......


*the first step is always the hardest. try standing up first u lazy ass!*

3Guards AEI! - explained

AEI is greek for ALWAYS.
3Guards AEI! is the 3rd battalion singapore guards 13th mono's motto.

Why AEI?
Simply put, it coincides with the Guards motto of "always ready, ready to strike!" i believe that motto is self explained. AEI also reflects our current CO's, LTC Mark Tan, vision for the battalion. That is "build deep, go far". his target is not only for the 2 yrs of ns but also the following 10 yrs of reservist. meaning 13th mono will ALWAYS be 13th mono. we will ALWAYS have the bond. i love dat.. reasons why i wanna do reservist.
YES.. i am still not over 2 nights ago.

*i never choose to go away, its juz that u dun wan me to stay*

A toast for the best.

A toast to 3rd battalion siangapore guards for being the best infantry unit.
A toast to one of the best night i ever had.

I was the first of the invited guest to arrived at bedok camp. Booking in camp after 5 months sure bring back alot of fond memories. we all agree that we never left the place. we all still feel at home when we stepped into bedok camp. That was our home for more than a year of our ns life. Many things happen. We were there when everything happened. From their first day to the turning ops parade. Its like a father watching the birth of his daughter till the moment he give her away to her husband. Ultimately, they are still yours no matter what. and the memories are meant for u to keep. We greet each other with hugs and handshakes. Our bond is still there. and i am thankful for that. BRAVO company commanders are the best that a man can ever ask for. So much so that we sacrifice time and effort to double the work of a normal ns sergeant to bring glory of the best coy in 3guards.

Its 0120am and i am feeling emo. I juz had the best walk with idafi and khai from simpang to my house. we talked and joked along the way. they will sorely be missed. i already missed and still missing late nights, supper at simpang, talking cock and best of all, i miss shan. I still remember his reaction when i left camp. he juz turned away and smoke his cigarrete. he told me he couldnt bear to see me leave. and he turn away to prevent himself from crying. Here's the guy who is arguably the best sergeant in 3guards. so much for the love. haiz... i wish i could turn back time.

Photos will be in facebook once my dear darling idafi decides to upload.

i think i am goin crazy. for 2 nights in a row i came home after 12midnight. i played soccer at 12am yesterday and reach home at 2 plus. slept at 3 and wake up at 6 to go work. today, i reached home at 1. and its already 130. i still haven sleep. haiz...

*let me dwell in my memories*

I juz remembered something s1 and me talked about. its bout how we still haven let go of bedok camp and the battalion. i juz remembered CO's motto to us. BUILD DEEP,GO FAR. its so materialising. s1 said that u guys are like the root of this tree. u were there to give what it needs to grow and develop. and u are still the most important part of the tree after it grow. Without u, there's no them

*3guards- AEI!*

OMG OMG OMG

OH MY GOD!!!!

at the current moment, i feel like a girl. I spent $77 bucks in a hair salon. for the first time ever, i got my hair cut and washed. And i bought a shampoo and conditioner for my hair. i have been having hair problem and have been trying to find the right shampoo. so yeah.. i ended up spending $77 at the hair salon.

Next up, i wen to guardian to get my bro his wax. his wax cost $8.80. total bill.. $95.20. Do the maths okie? and what did i spent on? for me to know. for u to find out. i feel like a girl right now. Thats a clue for u babe. but i had a nice chat with the aunty at guardian. MACAM BEST FRIEND SIUL! she want to see me next week. hahhaa.. and she said i am shy cuz i am an aquarian. to those who didnt believe i am shy.. I AM!

anyway.. i hope things work. cuz yeah.. ouh nevermind.. hoping to play soccer at 12 midnite later wif rabbit. cant wait to head back to bedok camp tomolo for celebration too... YIPPE!!!!!!!

=)

i got a nice suprise before i got home. Seem like there is a demand for me. i mean there are people who wan to work wif me. i cant see a gd explanation for that. i juz do wad i gotta do and keep quiet. Thats all. am i so appealing? gdness...
this is concerning guys. Now for the gerls. i dun see the reason y they will wan to fall for me. i am juz an average guy. i have no car. no cash. no condo. no career. no life.
but they say people love u for who u are inside rite? EVEN WORSE. i have the same thing as u do.. oki.. except maybe for the gerls we have different things. but like every one else.. i have a heart. liver. kidney. stomach and wad not. so i am no different from other peeps. geeee... maybe one day i wil know. hahha..

seem like i was on hiatus for a while. Didnt have the motivation to blog i guess. or maybe cuz i haven been feeling well lately. i juz dunno why. but nothing interesting to blog about. i have no life, no gf. yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......

shit.. i need to get a life.. anyone know of any shop dat have life for sale??

For wad it's worth

Stepped into a familiar place today. And Thankfully, i was greeted with a little shock and loads of smile. All dat made it worthwhile. esp the one on his face. NICE.. haha... sounds gay right? but i am perfectly straight. really... Y NO ONE BELIEVE ME??

anyway.. wanted to run but decided against it last min cuz its malam jumaat. so yeah.. i dont wan to get into any trouble or anything.. i will juz do something else.. hahha..

oh.. i know i realised this sometime ago but i juz wan to say it. i think that it is very sad that i cant commit long to anything in Sg. basically cause we are confirm goin aussie. and sis say if i wan to stay here.. i muz go back and forth.. tiring and waste of moolah to me.. gdness.. i still think it is very saddening really.. how how how??

oh.. i was thinking of the things dat i am really missing now..
Peeps - u and ur best fren.. another u and ur best fren.. mil mil.. my men.. my fellow commanders.. team genesis.. .miss ruk.. mrs teng.. murni and abu.. miss all my 2e1 class mates..
Places - soccer fields.. starbucks.. marina mac.. vivo.. my old room.. there's alot but cant think of any now.. grrr..
haiya.. i forget liao.. nvm.. next time den..
TA!

oh oh.. who ever joining nike+ 10k, let me know okie??!!!

Nike+ 10k

YESH AHHHHH!!!
i am officially part of nike+ 10k the human race. Thanks to sis help, i paid the registration fee of 25bucks. Running for a gd cause is always gd. And i think its time that i get back in shape by starting to run and stuff. I was thinking of getting the nike sportsband. Its like so cool! It cost 100bucks. i am still considering. DAMN. ouh... for those who dunno bout nike+ 10k. its basically a worldwide event where everyone runs 10km for charity. Kudos to nike.

Anyway.. brought up the possibility of me not wanting to go to aussie to sis. but hahaha.. okie.. she convince me to go. and yesh.. we are CONFIRM going.. wah lau ehhhhh... gdness... that clear a few matters up.

and since i have no time to hit the gym. been doin stuff at home. Wanted to run after WORK but it RAINED. kinda a gd excuse not to run ah lazy ass. Bit and jun ask me play soccer. but mak kau.. at AMK... nah.. dats a weee bit too far for my liking.. and at night some more... hahah...

*i am closing my eyes still*

wad's this?

Have u ever dream of someone so much that it hurts when u open your eyes?

It is a dream that is awake when u are asleep.

A dream that fulfil all dreams.

YOU.

Heh.. sorry.. just recalling some experience sometime back.

dont u ever have that kind of feeling?

The kind that make u dream of someone night after night?

The kind of feeling that every lingering moment drifts u away?

I am waiting here to be taken away.

*right here. right now.*

procastination at its best

Procastinating.
yes.. that my friend would best describe what i am currently doing. I think i think too much and do too little i guess. Macam Ted in How i Met Your Mother. Its a funny series btw. Should watch it. NICE!

anyhoooooo.. i still have not decided what i wan in life. maybe i have decided. i choose simplicity with no worries. but no one said that life was goin to give u what u want on a silver platter right? there's too many things to worry about. Family.StudiesMONEY.friends.others.urself. geeeeeee...

Who cares?
Just finish watching L :change the world, the third instalment of Death note the movie. I must say it is very different from the first 2 movies. L show much more emotions and he actually ventured out of his comfort zone to save the world. Its not as nice as when L and Kira try to outwit each other in the first 2 movies. This time he outwit one Dr kujo or K. but cool nonetheless. hahhaa..

dah.. malas ah.. heh..

Weit: HAAAAAAvvvvveeeeeeee u met ted? u still haven use dat pick up line for me oki!

mistakes

Here's the thing about mistakes. Sometimes even when u know something is a mistake, you've got to make it anyway.

Offered

Suprise suprise...
I was chatting on msn when the pop-up appeared. It read university of newcastle. Initially i thought that it was probably a junk mail. Furthermore, Idp said that it will take 4-6 weeks for them to get back to me. And it have only been 2-3 weeks. Thats fast. I am not going to reply because i am goin to apply for Macquarie in august. Both are business courses btw. But Macquarie is more prestigous and its in Sydney's cbd area,which is a plus for a biz student. Well.. shall wait to see how things unfold.

Got a morning call from prudential. Asking when i can start.Its a part time job. and the hours are very flexi. and its either door to door or survey. in the area my living area some more. its 10 bucks per hour. i am not too sure if i will take it. But if i wan to be a biz student. i got to start somewhere really.It also help in learning how to interact with people and build up my confidence. i am not too sure bout this.

And my old supervisor from airport asked if i would wan to come back and work. basically i follow my bro who is the truck driver to do deliveries and collections. its from 7am to 5pm but usually work ends around 7. ot pay is 5 per hour. and work on sat till 3. i am not keen on that. and i dun like to travel long distance due to some personal problem. pluz.. i have issues with my bro's temperament.

choices! GRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

*To live in regret is the same as not living at all*

Hanging on

This is for those who need it.

Hang in there cause u are stronger than u are. Hang in there cuz u are stronger than u think u will ever be.

There are peeps who actually care even if u cant see it.

Deep down u know u can get tru it.

u will get tru it..
juz got to reach deep down inside..


if u need a helping hand... or a listening ear..
u know where to find one...


right here... anytime...

helllo

heylo.

i actually wanted to blog about my perspective on certain issues, but decided against it because someting made me change my mind. Maybe along the way i have the sudden urge to say my view then maybe i will.

Mum just offered me money to cut my hair. She thought that i didnt cut my hair cause i had no money. I JUST DONT WAN TO CUT MY HAIR! ok.. maybe i will get it layered and trim juz a little okie.. i want to try having long hair. for once?

Yesterday night the guyz miraculously managed to drag my sorry ass down to simpang bedok at 11pm. It was nice to see them and hear their thailand trip. it was very funny listening to them recalling their experiences. i wish i was there. well, i was almost there but had to back out due to personal reasons. If not it would have been fun to go with kozaw, alex, aloy, daniel and kenny. Gonna miss genesis and these guys when i leave. speaking of leaving, Alex left this morning for australia. kozaw going to leave for myammar tomorrow. Alfred leaving for indo on sat till 5h aug. and ash gonna leave for thai on sun. WHEN ARE WE EVER GOIN TO HAVE A MATCH OR PLAY SOCCER LIKE THAT??? i am so sadddddddddddddddddddddddddd.... no soccer = FAT FAT FAT.. not like i am not fat rite now.... HELP?

*i cannot think of anything to put here currently*

The art or discovery

What do u do on a lazy sunday?



I pratically did nothing other than discovering a few channels that i got hooked on. Namely, they are the History channel, National Geographic channel and Discovery channel. Its really amazing and cool on what you can learn from these channels. They are all very nice to watch.



But i have to say that my favourite would be Fight Masters. Especially the episode on Special Forces. It really shows the special forces pushing themselves beyond the human threshold. And example would be how an ex navy seal can actually stay in a tub full of ice cold water for an hour while fighting off hypothermia. A normal human being would be i hypothermial state in under half an hour. The mental toughest and physical conditioning of the seals was in his favour. HOw he manage to maintain his internal body temperature at 37.5 degrees celcius is mind blowing even to the scientist. The best part is that he had to do a circuit in a normal conditon and in a hypothermial state. Guess what? he did better in the hypothermial state than when he is in the normal state. i think its due to the adreneline rush and the state of anxiety which pushes our abilities up one notch. And there were other experiments too. Like examining the state of dehydration and also the state of total darkness. The result is astonishing i tell you. To those who have cable, do not miss fight master.



For those who are not interested in violence or anything related to that, i would recommend national geographic's "mad lab" or "how do they do it" or "i didn't know that". basically all the shows is about science in everyday life. Like in I didn't know that, they actually cut a plasma tv to see what is inside. Basically a plasma tv is a sheet of plasma of air in between 2 sheets of glass. And the thing that give its images are gases. Cool huh? well.. i said i didnt know that when i first saw it. Now i know. Thanks to the discovery of discovery. COOLNESS!



As you can see, i have like alot of time on my hand. Basically the main reason of why i am growing FAT. I know i should but i don't seem to have the motivation to. Those who know me know that i am a lazy ass and that i can never go out alone. SERIOUSLY, I DO NOT LIKE TO BE ALONE. okie fine, most of the time yes. but there are times when i would love to be alone so that i dont have to hurt anyone. Its more of a process of me letting myself cool. And i know one thing that never fail to make me feel better. SOCCER. but even soccer can be frustrating at times. HEH... or maybe its just me.



Anyway, I like blogging this way. Its kin of nice to read and i think i am more coherent in delivering my message across. But i dont actually have any message behind all my entries. Like i said, it is just me blabbering nonsense or trying to make sense out of nonsense which in actual sense is nonsensical really. to those who trying to figure out the last sentence, Dont bother. Its actually full of nonsense.

Hope u all had a great weekend peeps. and have things to look forward to this week. ADIOS!

*if its impossible to turn dreams into reality. DONT believe in impossibilities. BELIEVE IN TURNING UR DREAMS INTO REALITY!!*

A reunion at last

first and foremost, i received some flak and some concerns over previous entry. i would like to say thank you for those who were concerned for me. I juz would like to reiterate that the entry was entirely me ranting and venting my frustrations out. it was not directed to anyone. THANKS!

well.. i think i should start writing coherently and in proper sentences. If you don't practice your language, you might lose it. so, this entry will be a start for me. wish me luck yeah?

As planned, Artsix decided to meet at 12pm at Eastpoint. And us ,being us, arrived late. actually kaiwei reached first but made a trip to challenger to check out some stuff. i was next then adam. next was hana followed by stef. in the end, fahimah wif tim dropping by to chat for a while and pick adam out.
Despite the years that passed, we are still the same bunch of noisy mischievious bunch. Chilled at starbucks and just talked bout the past and the future. Adam is flying off tomorrow to Melbourne(unsw) while kaiwei will be flying off next sun to canberra(anu). Adam and me made plans to keep in contact in Sydney when i arrive there. coolness!
i think the most significant thing that happened was when adam asked if i was attached. Everyone was shocked when i told them that i was actually together with anastassia after ju. i am not sure the reason why. maybe it was due to the fact that anas was different in sch before something happened that made her change. Well, i am still thankful i know her. =>
And one more thing that seem to strike a chord with me was when adam exclaimed "when are u ever serious wan?" to that, i just replied with a smile. i think i receive that kind of comment alot.
Anyway, the bunch still nice. Fahimah's damn cool. she can mimick a filipino very well and she can contour her body in weird ways. Steffie was her usual self, fishball face with a cartoon voice. i love her to bits! hana will always be hana. ahha. and kaiwei was his usual quiet self. Adam.. well... in words of steffie, adam juz cant stop yakking. i miss thos peeps..

i got pics. but its in my hp. i am feeling a bit lazy to upload into the comp and upload on the blog. and due to popular demand. i will be making a facebook account soon i guess. till the next entry peeps.
ENJOY THE WEEKENDS!