IOU

yes... this is an iou...

personally.. this is for u.. and for u solely..
to u who is reading this.. u noe who u are..
dun have to say anything.. juz read..
if u do wan to reply.. do so personally..

here goes..

I think i owe u an apology since a long time ago.
yeah.. i hurt u a couple of times..
wif my actions.. esp wif my words..
most of the time.. i dun mean wad i say.
i say things for the fun of it.
but most of the time.. i couldnt see those words hurt u.
i dunno why today i decide to do this.
i hope its not too late..
and it has nothing to do wif anything..
i juz feel dat its the right thing to do.

sorry babe..

and most impt of all..
despite wad i say..
i know deep in my heart..
i always mean when i say this...

i will be there.

*sorry*

baik ah.. sakit

woke up.. pay a few visits to the toilet..
den off to tpjc to meet alex.
ran 2 rounds den dat was it..
my mind wanted to blank out..
played soccer..
but end up not being able to run even..
thanks to the knee injury..
but it was nice to see elfi.. khai.. sarip. and boon pin again..
went home.. sleep..
woke up feeling feverish..
and the cough have been acting up for the past 2 days.

and i am here ranting bout it..
still feeling shitty...(both literally and non)
its been a long time since i have been sick.
and considering a visit to the doc for my knee like seriusly...

*its time...*

dead end

what do u do when u reach a dead end?
which path do u take when u reach a crossroad?
wad makes u dedide which road to take?

seem like i have to decide wad to do now..
maybe i have decided..
juz dat i am afraid to do it..
i wonder if its cuz of people's expectations or my own.
really.. i dunno..
but i hope wad i am doin is right...

its funny how it seem like
u said its weird
i say... i really dunno wads goin on..
okie.. i didnt say it out loud..
and frankly.. i dunno wad to do wif it actually..
maybe this sun will say something..
i am juz shy.. and afraid.. i dunno.. i really dun...
help?

*Dun believe wad u see.. cuz u dunno wads inside..*

Tried.. but no use...

Final Score read..
Fc Genesis 3 Vanty fc KOSONG!
match update is on the blog.. do click on the link on the right...
do click on the player profiles too..
our dear VC have done up profiles for us..
thanks..

My take on the match..
The oppenent played dirty.. and they are a team of muscular mat team.. and its no joke...
My knee was the first victim in the opening 10 mins.
and seriusly... i was fed up cuz to me.. they were more like wanting to pick a fight den play soccer.
The studs mark can clearly be seen on my knee now..
and never in my life have i kaope-d to the ref so much..
i actually waited for him at half time to give him my 2 cents worth..
and the final straw was when no 18 took out my bro wif a cynical tackle..
i am never one who wan to pick up a fight..
but yest was the first time dat i actually had the desire to ask for it..
it doesnt matter how big the fella was..
pluz the one on the ground was my bro...
all i can say to future opponents is..
U can try to bring us down..and we will never back down from a fight.. we let our football do the talking.
i am still angry wif vanty fc btw...

moving on...
i dunno wad else to say...
there nothing like i wan to share out loud...

i guess...

Zuhriyyah: NAH! name kau.. happy??

*i'll do wad i do best... dat's being me!*

HYPED UP!

juz got back not long ago from genesis fc outing..
and wad a night it was..
no holds barred.. many luffs.. and sincere frenship..
I LIKE!
and to think i didnt wan to go in the first place..
in the end.. it was me.. alex.. aloy.. charles.. zul.. najib and yen..
being fc genesis.. we talked bout fc genesis.. haha...
no we are not the dull boring ones..
we ate dinner.. bowled.. pooled.. and starbucks'ed!
and the poor west siders miss the last train.. poor them..

hehe...


and morning was soccer wif the usual peeps..
had fun.. and yeah..
managed to rope dee to join fc genesis!
power la... last week khai.. now dee...

after soccer went to amir place for him to change
den back to mine for me to change and enjoy the afternoon
had a gd luff wif sis and amir..
YUP!

i think i should be thankful for the peeps i have..
like really... they are a nice bunch..
and i love em to bits..
from pri sch frenz.. to fc genesis..
if u ask me if i would lay down my life for them..
more likely dat i would..

and u...
u cont to suprise me each day..
like yeah.. its fun in a way.. macam cute gitu..
and.. this morning.. i did it out of instinct..
maybe it was pre-planned cuz i set my alarm at 530 to make sure u did wake up.
well.. i made u sleep late.. i think dats the least i can do...
heh... thanks...

Farhana: CHUCK CHUCK CHUCK!!! go watch.. its funny!

Syida: so.. mak u sudi tak? berapa ribu mak u nak?? hahahha!!!

Mai: i think i be nice and give u a personal msg.. stay happy aite? u noe where to find me.. IN SG! hahah! WHERE'S MY MAIL DELIVERED GF???

did i miss out anyone???

*Dear God... thanks for everything.. esp the strenght for me to be there for everyone when i am down myself..*

what a friday!

seriusly... wad a day it turn out to be..
wad started as a boring day ended up being more den wad i expected.

morning and afternoon was boring as usual.
but it all start wif a simple sms from amir askin me to go to the library.

lets juz say i met someone.. even tho it wasnt who it was.
but yeah... its nice to see them..

had a very interesting conversation wif a few members of genesis fc.
CANT WAIT FOR SUN!!!

lastly.. u are very interesting. thanks for treating me like u noe me..


ouh... my bro aint talking to me still.. for quitting..
biarla!

hmmmm

nothing much to say..

*if u think dat it is easy being me.. den be me*

No hunger no glory, No desire no use

looks like i was on a hiatus for the past few days...
not my fault.. the brain refuse to think. body refuse to work.
dats dat!

update..
For first time in 2008.. fc genesis lost.
3-1 to team rfc. plz do click on the link for more updates.
all i can say is

NO HUNGER NO GLORY, NO DESIRE NO USE!

and its true.. no desire no use..
cuz i woke up yest feeling super shitty dat i juz quit my job juz like dat.
and i am gonna suffer the wrath of my bro.
but i dun care.

Working next week at suntec convention centre wif some of my pals.. yeah!
baik ah...

FARHANA: thanks for the assam pedas fish at breeks. enjoy ur hols okie!
Syida: da dapat hp baru jgn la lupe i k?? hahha...
Weit: yeah.. sorry for being missing for some time.. i dunno y...


*am i torn between u?*

Listen

Juz close your eyes and listen to the song.

out of sort

i wan to update bout something..

but not now..
not at this moment...

cuz rite now..
i dunno wad i am thinking.
i dunno wad i am feeling.

i really dunno.
full-stop.

Suprise Suprise

Yes.. u read it correctly.. it 830 am and i am still at home... when my work start at 7.. best kappe.. got a few suprises..

HAPPY BDAY BRO! (my real bro)
okie.. emo jap..
i noe i never tell u this..
but ever since young i have been wanting to be like u.
i dunnoe y.. maybe its juz how u look up to ur older siblings i guess.
Thanks eh for everything..


NO 1
yes.. hari ni bday dia.. 2 days after my mums bday..
he called saying he will fetch me on the way to delivery. so i make my way home to sleepp.
and he say it will be late.. so here i am blogging.. cuz tak de keje... malas ah nak keje..

NO 2
i received a call at 8
it was really suprising to get a call from u
but thanks eh pagi2 da kacau orang.
HAPPY GRADUATING EH!

NO 3
ni sikit disappointing.. bace blog.. read the tag board.
VESAK DAY TAK ADE ORANG NAK BELANJE!!!!!
pisang ah ana... thanks ah..
but its okie... me being swit and cute.. i und..
U DUN WAN TO TREAT ME!
hehe.. ouh its okie.. i see who i can date.. haha..


SYIDA: yes.. u are chatting wif me now.. and yes.. dat beruknye ad... cute gitu lo.. haha.and bout ZUHRIYYAH nye name.. sorry ah.. abang potek...
ANA: funny eh... got blog den u never sms me anymore.. u so free.. i dun even see u online seh.. hahah...


*wad have i got myself into?*

terima kasih dayang-dayangs(and a beruk)

This entry is khas buat 3 orang wanita yang telah komment di tag board ye..
ini untuk korang.

FARHANA
wah lao eh... dat one pujuk or wad?
macam tak suke je... thanks eh... noe wad u can do for me rite?
u still owe me one big present...
and plz eh.. lelaki pun boleh majuk pe..
terpotong ngan pisau pun berdarah jugak mahhhhh...
and.. u dun have to hide dat u are doin anyting fun..
u have ur fair share of exam stress..
when u leaving for hols again?
VESAK DAY U THINK AH!!!!!

BERUK aka SYIDA aka Ala DAYANG DAYANG!
aku nye suke ah nak link kau as ape...
tak susah kan kau pe... hehehe...
oppppss... nanti majuk lak dia.. 44 hari lak tu... RABAK!!
and ape ni associate aku ngan earthquake china?
tu kuasa Allah.. bukan aku..
aku hanye hambanye yang CUTE BANGET
dan SWIT GITU LO!
boring................................. malas nak layan ah nie...

ZUHRRIYAH(spelling betul tak???!?!!)
hehhee... macam kurang ajar lak aku ni bahasakan orang...
da la kurang tinggi.. aduiiiiii...
woi kak... jangan nak sekaki ngan syida eh..
mampus aku nanti.. kau tengok sampai hati dia nak gigit aku...
kau pun nak join ke??

*i hope i am doin things right*

AKU STRESSS!!!!!

First of all....

HAPPY BDAY MUM!

i hope u have gd health and always try to better urself.

stay strong despite wad u been tru and will go tru.

u may not be the best mum in the world.

but u are the best i can ever have.

cuz i can onli have one mum in my life time.

u.

Aite..... moving on..

GUESS WAD!??!

reached home at 5 juz now.

so got a few things done..

I AM BOTAK! CUZ THE AUNTY CUT MY HAIR WRONGLY!!!

stress siullllllll....

NOT GOIN CUT MY HAIR ANYMOREEEEEE!!!

i had this conversation in my head this morning.

its regarding the pain in my right knee.

knee: ouch!

me: waddup?

knee: pain le..

me: why sia?

knee:maybe its a sign i am getting old...

me: serius eh? how old are u?

knee: as old as u GOONDU!

THANKS knee! u made me 25bucks poorer cuz i decided dat is best to buy a knee support for myself... aduiiiiiiiii...

Syida: u majuk ke yang? seriusly.. tak sangke kau dat famous! HAHHAAH! Ala DAYANG DAYANG!

Ana: Menghilang nampakk tak nak pujuk ke? i have no idea for vesak day!

Mak aiiiiiii( not mak u okie)

OKie... i juz wana to knoe...

WHO ELSE READ MY BLOG????!!!

no la.. juz a bit suprised at the names i see on the tag board... tak sangke ade orang yang sudi membace nonsense aku ni...

hmmm...sunday fc genesis got game at 5 at jurong junior college.. ARTIFICIAL PITCH.. BAIK KAPPE!!!

OHM!!... guess wad i juz got..

starbucks oreo cheese cake(it reminds me of u.. not like i forget u anyways)

love my sis to bits and pieces and every crumble!

WEEEEEEEEEE!!

FARHANA: i still merajuk wif u!
Syida: ape kau nak beruk?? apa link kau eh?

WAH LAO EH!!!

WAH LAO EHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Y am i feeling this way??
serius tak le angkat...........


ouh.. yes farhana... as promise... i gonna tell the whole world dat i MERAJUK wif u!

wad do u do when a fren sms u saying i am bored?
u dun reply go call ur gf lo(your fren is single btw)
den when he call u at 7pluz pm u dun tell him dat u are at tm while he is at work!
and worst.. u said u are SHOPPING!!!

da la ajak.. gi shopping lak tu... MERAJUK AH GINI!

The end of something so great

THIS IS IT!

BLOODY LAST DAY OF EPL!!!!!!!

ouh well.. at least there's euro 2008 and my sis subcribe to the euro package for me! CAYANG DIA!

hari ni hari ibu eh.. lupe lak.. ate at sakura downtown yest..
orang punye ramai.. semut pun kalah siul!

Anyways.. Fc-genesis supposed match at fuchun sec was cancelled due to wter logged pitch.. lucky for me i guess.. cuz if not i would onli have 2 hours of rest after playing soccer in the morning..
macam best gitu amir datang.. da lame tak main ngan dia.. pluz dia bawak si nana lak.. haha...

And i still haven lost my connection wif rabbit.. i think we have one of the best understanding among anybody.. i dunno y.. somehow we do.. played against some abang2 team da we used to play wif.. dorang power la.. but.. kite lagi power.. MACAM PAHAM!

pas tu kluar ngan 2 beruk gi bedok library.. the 2 beruk tak lain tak bukan amir ngan nana.. i think ah.. people like syida and nana should stop goin out wif me.. they end up getting bullied by me.. hahhaha...

Last but not least...
HAPPY 21st BDAY FARNAMALS..
(i doubt u read this blog. but its ur bday anyhow)


Anyone wif ideas of how to celebrate bdays wif like 10-20 peeps? can leave a msg on my tag board.. i too tired to think liao le!!!

THANKS!

NANA & FARHANA(ana)

This entry is dedicated to NORFARHANA MOHAMED ISMAIL!

THANKS FOR THE ORANGE TAG BOARD!!!!

YOUR treat on vesak day!!

Is there a need for a title?

u noe ah... there's like so much to say.. but like... the words dun come out rite..


seriusly.. i dunno wad to feel.. cuz u noe when u try so hard.. when u so sincere bout stuff..
they juz throw it back into your face?

BUT I WILL BOUNCE BACK FOR SURE!

the onli thing dat worries me noe is my knee...
i am afraid dat i might have to give up the one thing..
SOCCER!

in fact.. since a few yrs back.. i feel dat alot have been taken away from me..
but.. wad the hell.. life goes on..

i have lost so much dat it dun bother me.. cuz ultimately.. there will be something for me to look forward to..

Right now.. its empty..

FARHANA: WHERE's MY TAG BOARD??!!!

Let me, Let me

Let me, let me

let me rant abit.

let me, let me.

let me be me

for i am weary.

yea.. i think i need a time off.. my brain seem to be refusing to work since last week. i dunno y.

maybe i am juz tired. maybe.

i need a life. all i do is work and go home.

and yeah.. being trying to be superman.

its really tiring. but someone gotta do it mah..

so let me rant a bit. after i let it out. i will be fine.. i promise..

to the people reading this.. i dunno who ah..

u are readin nonsense really.. u will juz read bout me goin on and on...

Y??

cuz like u.. i have nothing better to do den to write nonsense for people like u to read...

HAHAH!! GOTCHA... padan muke korang..

but.. on a serius note... i do need a time off..

its taking a toll on me.. and my right knee seem to be telling me dat i am getting old..

niggling pain.. hope it wont affect my match this sun.. InsyaAllah..

Farhana: if u are reading this.. congrats.. by the time u read this ur exams are gone forever! enjoy eh u.. WHEN U WAN TREAT ME?!!

Weit: yesh.. i blogged.. okie.. i think u wait long long ah.. i already at episode 197... hahah...

SYIDA: ALA DAYANG DAYANG!

amik korang

THIS IS MY FAV BADUT!!!!
THE GANG- 15 years and counting
me doin wad i do best...

as promise.. dats the pics.. theres more but malas..

A night of fun dat ended up wif a BITE

How many of us can say dat half of the people we knew are those we knew almost our whole life?

how many of us can say dat despite the years dat gone by we are still the same as we first met?

Well.. WE can.. the 1999 batch of TNPS-ians.

DAMN... it was a fun nite of sheesha and talking cock and bull. All thanks to our in house badut aka SHEIK! He is like our clown ever since pri sch.

A gist of wad happen.. we being MELAYU.. and always berpegang pada janji MELAYU.. met at 530 even tho EVERYONE was told to meet at 3 at PS. First to reach was the clown. Followed by me and my sayang(syidah).. MACAM PAHAM! followed by Az and farha(gf). den came hakim. faidhi. su. shafilah. nadia. amir. FARNA(Guest of honour). and mok.

We ended up goin to arab street for SHHEEEEEESHA~~! it been a long time since i did.. and it was fun fun fun.. took pict but tah la bile nak dapat.. damn...

we ended up at Marina square where everyone parted and where FIQAH!(syidah sis) met us. And thanks syidah for saying i am your bf. and thanks for the scars and THE BITE!

despite the fun and all...reality sinks in. had a 2 hour no holds barred talk wif faidhi under my void deck till 1 am. yeah.. we do sure got loads of stuff to think of for our days ahead..

welll.. first entry je da panjang.. okie.. i try to make it more fun when i noe how to godeh wif all the stuff oki!